I am a Waste

When life gets you down what escape do you have? Lately I've been finding myself sleeping all day long in order to escape from reality and myself. I'm 16 years old and unsatisfied with myself and my life. My question is, what will I go to when sleep isn't enough? Do I step to drugs, alcohol, or sex? No matter what I do I'm always going to wake back up and fall into my pit of existence not feeling good enough for this world. NO matter how hard I try I'll always bee back in this situation, this feeling, this helplessness. What will I go to that will end this feeling? What is my permanent escape? The only answer I can find is death. An eternal slumber that I'll never wake from. I'll never have to wake back up into this state of unsatisfactory. The only question is, when will I reach my limit to make ma actually do it?