I have a feeling that if my past 12 year old self could come and meet me now she'd be very ashamed. I wanted to be top of my class, driving as soon as I could, thin, smart, and respectful of myself and others. Most of all I never wanted to let people change me. In my past years I was always proud of being different and odd but somewhere alone the line I got tired of it and all I wanted to be accepted. So here I am, I feel like I have officially lost touch with myself and honestly I can't say that I'm upset by it. I know it sounds "emo" but I don't feel anything about who/what I am. I'm completely numb to my life at the moment. I'm never going to go anywhere or make anything of myself, so why try?
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