Just got home from work. Sitting in the bath tub and blogging while listening to city and colour. #relaxing

Run Your Mouth

I'm done playing nice, I'm tired of being stepped on. I'm going to be shutting worlds down if this keeps up.

John Mayer - Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

It's been so long since I've been haunted by the memory of you, and I can't tell you how good it feels. I feel for you, I really do because you have no idea how pathetic you really are. You're a waste of life and I hate you, I love watching you crash and burn.

Everything is just one big blur.

Saw Bayside Wednesday night, clocked in at home at 2am. Best show ever, great night.
Thursday was a snow day, spend the day with Eric, and the night with Onie.
Today, I'll be going to work and hopefully seeing Elise.
Tomorrow will be a homework day.

My life rules.

Eight Days Late, but I'm Posting It

I got him the glasses and mustache combo for his birthday. :)

We had a photo shoot in my car

I don't want to die tomorrow feeling useless.
I don't want to sit here and wait for someone to decide I'm old enough to be something.
I don't want this.

vindicate me.

I'm No Longer Your Perfect Little Girl, Am I?

I'm a failure.

City And Colour - Against the Grain (Myspace Transmissions)

This is All I'm Looking For.

sat·is·fac·tion noun \ˌsa-təs-ˈfak-shən\
Definition of SATISFACTION

2
a : fulfillment of a need or want
b : the quality or state of being satisfied : contentment
c : a source or means of enjoyment : gratification

vin·di·cat·edvin·di·cat·ing
Definition of VINDICATE

transitive verb
obsolete : to set free : deliver

Definition of RELEVANCE

1
a : relation to the matter at hand
b : practical and especially social applicability : pertinence
2
: the ability (as of an information retrieval system) to retrieve material that satisfies the needs of the user

"If I had a single flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk forever in my garden."

Don't Dare:

critisize or judge me.
I'm more of a person you will ever be.

What Really is the Good Life?

At Starbucks my friend turned to a man and said, "Excuse me sir, what do you do for a living?" He sold investments for a bank. He was a business man, divorced, wealthy, and moved back here to be with his kids. We questioned him about how he looked at life, what paid off and what didn't, and if we were going to lose our teenage angst. He said "To get anything meaningful you have to work hard at something. Big things pay big the small things play little." He proceeded to tell us about all the places he visited, Russia, Japan, Germany, Switzerland, and many others. I was inspired to be something big. I was inspired until he said, "With money it's easy to be happy. You can do a lot of things to have fun."
The man clearly hated his job when we asked him about it. He wasn't happy that he had to come back to work out here because he didn't like the city. The only thing that seemed to make him happy was money. That's not what I want. I'd rather be poor and doing something I love than be rich and finding my happiness in paper.

Yeah, I really don't care. I just want to live on my own. I give no fucks.

I found this is my drafts, I don

Today:
Went to school. Found out I have All County Band tomorrow night 6-9pm then Thursday starting at 10am and a concert at 7pm. Also found out I have NKY Select Band auditions Saturday morning.
After school I took Onie home and went to visit Eric. We played some Guitar Hero then went to Chipotle. After we devoured oversized burritos we went to Goodwill where I got a call from my dad. He said tomomrrow he's taking us out to go to Fugi Steakhouse for my birthday. I'm super excited! Eric and I decided to get ugly sweaters for the occasion. Then we went back to his house to watch some Ren and Stimpy.

Today has been good.

New Year

I realized my first posting for this year was negative. What a great way to start!

My new year was actually a good one. I spent the day with Eric and we went shopping and I got an adorable dress for $10! It's bright red and it made me really happy since I've been looking for one for so long. Then I spent a portion of my evening with Onie. We went to see Burlesque at the discount theater.

This year:
1.spend more time with friends
2.fit better into that dress
3.redo wardrobe

Can't get my tattoo until I get my car fixed. Pissed.
I was told I was getting it for my birthday. Fuck birthdays.