Ben Folds Five - Brick

You People Make Me Sick,

I've done everything for you. I've sat through all your crap. And I've helped you through hard times and all I do is get overlooked. Grow up, seriously.

Ultimately the thing I have to fear the most is myself.
I decide whether or not I get something done.
I decide how I react to things.
I make choices for myself.
I'm my biggest mistake.

I've got a hunger
Twisting my stomach into knots
That my tongue was tied off

My brain's repeating
"if you've got an impulse let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth.

Baa bah, this is the sound of settling
Baa bah, baa bah

Our youth is fleeting
Old age is just around the bend
And i can't wait to go grey

And i'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If i'd only thought of something charming to say.

Baa bah, this is the sound of settling
Baa bah, baa bah


I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

-Death Cab for Cutie, Sound of Settling

November 27, 2010

I'm falling down. Down, down, down.
I'm losing ground. It's falling from beneath my feet.
I'm falling down, I'm losing ground, and no one's tried to pick me up.

You thought you knew me, I did too. But we were wrong.
And after all of this, post realizing what lies ahead, I don't care.

Rollin'

My car, my step towards independence, my love, my get away, my life.

I lol'd

I Want to Love, I Want to be Loved

"Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one"
-Only One by Yellowcard

I sing this song late at night when I drive in my car. It makes me feel lonely but happy at the same time because I know I'm singing it with someone in mind. I wish I knew for sure who my "only one" was though. I know I'm young but it seems like some people are able to find the right person at a young age. I'm not sure if I could do that because I like change but at the same time I really like security.

"There's just no one, no one like you
You are my only one"

Time

I made this sometime last year.
Time always changes and yet it always is the same.
Time runs all of us, I runs the world.
Time.

I should probably stop using my blog to bitch so..

I've lost 10 pounds! :D

"I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here"

"Manage me, I'm a mess
Turn a page, I'm a book half unread
I wanna be laughed at, laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless and that should be enough

But I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second-hand pick-me-up
And I'm over getting older

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress
That every word, by design, turns a head
I wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because
I wanna feel weightless 'cause that would be enough

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here

This could be all I've waited for
(I've waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything I don't wanna dream anymore

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy, I'm stuck in here

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
(It's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
(Go nowhere)
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
(Everything I fear)
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here"
-All Time Low, Weightless