The Sound of Angles

This song never fails to get to me and get me in one of the best moods ever! It's so beautiful! Playing it is simple but it is so rich and the chords are beautiful. Wanger is amazing. I've been playing this in my head for the past week and I cannot get it out of my head, I want this to be played at my wedding (if don't end up living with cats). This can be played at my funeral too, along with Amazing Grace and Irish Tune from Country Derry because they are simply beautiful. Sometimes I get on the fence about music and then when I listen to something like Elsa's Procession to the Cathedral I know why I want to keep playing. Releasing emotions through is like a high and all you want is more, more, more. I can never get enough. I love sitting in a concert hall or even on stage and feel goosebumps all over my body from the music. It's amazing and I can never get enough.

Line? Where?!

Apparently I'm the only one that thinks I'm funny. Mostly because there seems to be this invisible like that says when you're not supposed to say things. It doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me because if I can't see the actual line, how would I know if I crossed it? Not only that but the line is all a matter of opinion! What I might think was to crude for a joke someone else might not! It just puzzles me when people get mad about it.

The Only Support I Get is from My Bra

I'm tired of feeling like I only have two or three people supporting me in what I do. I was really about to give up until I received some advice, "the only person you perform for is yourself." And really it's true!
It's not just no one showing up to my concerts that bothers me, it's the fact that it feels like no one supports me as a person. I'm sick of hearing "stop being this thing you're trying to be" I didn't realize that the world had a preset mold of who I am. I'm pretty sure that I am my own person and I'm just being myself. Yeah, people change and I'm changing and I probably always will be changing. And somehow I'm still the same Heatherlyn I always have been and always will be. I've recently decided to start dressing nicer, that doesn't mean I'm trying to be something I'm not, I just like being presentable.
So, when I say, "The only support I get is from my bra" I'm really just calling out to see if someone has my back because it sure has hell doesn't feel like it.

Why Does the Universe Decide to Crap All Over Me?

It seems like every time something bad happens, ten other bad things happen all in the same day.
For example, on my 16th birthday: I couldn't go anywhere because I had to babysit my brother, I had to make my own birthday cake, my cake got burned and fell apart, I bit my lip open, school was canceled so I didn't get to see anyone, my contact got stuck underneath my eyelid, and the lady at the DMV yelled at me for not having all my papers.
And then there is today, when I woke up at 6:50am (I have to leave to go to school around 7) I still needed a shower and then dry my hair, do my homework, and get ready. Then there was the getting violently ill in 2nd period and not being allowed to leave, that was great. Finding out my miracle reed got a huge split in it really made band interesting considering Concert Band Festival this Saturday. Oh later Kevin and I get to have a "talk" because I made some comments that upset him. I knew when I said it that I shouldn't have but the fact that I said it hasn't ever come up until now. I really hope this doesn't turn into anything big, I was really starting to value our relationship and bought my prom dress.

Maury, You've Taught Me So Much

Today while watching Maury I realized; why do we need hospitality classes when we could just watch Maury? The show teaches you how NOT to treat people so just do the opposite of what they do on the show! It also teaches you to keep track of who you have sex with so you don't end up coming on the show 12 times and still not finding your baby's daddy. I wonder what their family thinks when they see them on the show. How would you feel if you saw your daughter on the show trying to find the babies daddy?
But really, Kenton County schools want to save money, just have us watch Maury and Jerry Springer instead of paying people to teach parenting, hospitality, and relationships.

Sweats: My Comfy Enemy

I absolutely hate when people wear sweatpants to school everyday. Jeans ARE NOT YOUR ENEMY but dressing like you've just got out of bed everyday is. I'm not trying to sound superficial but it bothers me.
Another pet peeves is the UGG boots tucked into sweats. Tan doesn't really go with any color and tucking them in to your pants doesn't hide the ugliness. I understand they're comfortable but come on!
Lastly, I don't know what to say about the matching sweatpants and hoodie outfits. They bother me beyond belief beacause in no way do they look nice. They remind me of Regina George's mom off Mean Girls because that's all she's wearing the entire movie. I think what really set me off about them today is a girl in one of my classes was wearing a nice shirt with a matching light blue "sweat suit". THE NICE SHIRT DOESN'T CANCEL IT OUT! At least her pants weren't tucked into UGG boots. I might have puked.

Hello Prom, Meet Morals

I've got my prom dress all picked out and I can't be more excited about it! It's been on my mind like crazy! I just love dances because everyone is dressed up so nicely. The nice thing about prom is that the guys are all wearing tuxes, and everyone can pull off a tux. But there is one thing that bothers me, apparently it's "tradition" to have sex on prom night. Well, I'm sorry but I'm going to have to break tradition here because I have this thing called morals and I don't think it's right. If you're going to do it then, then go ahead but there's no reason to do it as "tradition". The only time you should have sex is when you're both ready, not because of prom. Girls spend way to much money on dresses to get semen all over them!

I Won't Sit Down and I Won't Shut Up

I'm tired of sitting around and being cautious. I understand that people need to grow but I'm 16 and I've decided that I'm going to live a little. I'm really sure what I'm going to do yet but it's time to get out there and do SOMETHING. Maybe I'm sounding a little immature but I want to have fun! Live life to the fullest or close to that! Maybe then I'll have some interesting stories to tell.

"Just Feeling Like It" Obviously Not Good Enough

I've recently decided that I want to start dressing nicer so I started to buy clearance dresses and such and I'm enjoying myself. Everyday I get a, "You look nice, why are you so dressed up?" Now, I don't mind being asked but then when I reply with a "I just feel like it." I get a look like I'm crazy. I don't understand why I look like a crazy person because I want to look presentable.

I'M SO FREAKING POPULAR!

I've went from 1 follower to 4 followers! This is so awesome! Now I feel bad for not blogging but there's really nothing that I can think of to write. My life is very uneventful. I've been busy preparing for auditions and still not getting anything done (how does that happen?)